HOLY! it's been so long! well anyways...i've been working a lot. Nothing really new to report. Hmm..my car got broken into a few weeks ago. Yeah that wasn't fun. Took all my cds those bastards. I was supposed to go to Boston next month for Robert's nephew's christening, but i'm not quite sure we can go since i can't get the time off from work. Well i can, but not that particular week. So we're planning on going to Vegas or Disneyland another week. I hope that works out. I need to get out of Arizona, it's too damn hot here. Hmm thats about it...

so i got that job i told you all about...a while ago. i started today. it was interesting, really easy. i like it cuz most of the people i work with are my age so it's cool. my hours are awesome too. so i'm happy..for now.

Robert doesn't come back until next week...he keeps pushing the date back further and further. he was supposed to come back yesterday, but i guess Boston got a lot of snow and he didn't want to fly in the snow. so it's set for next tuesday, we'll see if he actually comes back.

so on my way home from work today i was flipping tracks on a cd and stopped on one that is so my situation with Robert right now:

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

Everytime by Britney Spears

i just wanted to share with you all the interesting conversation i had with a strange fella the other night:

Heytootseee316 [1:33 AM]:  21/m tempe toots
 Siciliana x vc [1:33 AM]:  toots..
 Heytootseee316 [1:33 AM]:  u got a boy toy
 Heytootseee316 [1:33 AM]:  ya toots
 Siciliana x vc [1:33 AM]:  ok..
 Heytootseee316 [1:34 AM]:  well do ya
 Siciliana x vc [1:34 AM]:  yeah i guess i do
 Heytootseee316 [1:34 AM]:  sweet get yous tooooooooots
 Heytootseee316 [1:34 AM]:  yours
 Siciliana x vc [1:34 AM]:  ok
 Heytootseee316 [1:35 AM]:  u got a pic
 Siciliana x vc [1:35 AM]:  yes i do
 Heytootseee316 [1:35 AM]:  could i see please
 Siciliana x vc [1:36 AM]:  sent
 Heytootseee316 [1:36 AM]:  thx
 Heytootseee316 [1:37 AM]:  im 6 ft 2 green eyes all my teeth
 Siciliana x vc [1:37 AM]:  all your teeth huh?
 Heytootseee316 [1:37 AM]:  200lbs built out of prison 4 somethin i didnt do
 Heytootseee316 [1:38 AM]:  after three years
 Heytootseee316 [1:38 AM]:  ya all my teeeth i was farted out with
 Heytootseee316 [1:38 AM]:  its shot gun schade
 Heytootseee316 [1:38 AM]:  chk chk
 Heytootseee316 [1:38 AM]:  chk
 Heytootseee316 [1:39 AM]:  as im dancin because ur fine as hell hun
 Heytootseee316 [1:39 AM]:  dont let any one tell ya somethin else
 Heytootseee316 [1:39 AM]:  ill beat them
 Heytootseee316 [1:39 AM]:  im 6ft2
 Heytootseee316 [1:40 AM]:  one of kind
 Heytootseee316 [1:40 AM]:  toooooooooooots
 Heytootseee316 [1:40 AM]:  talk to me now
 Siciliana x vc [1:40 AM]:  um, don't know quite what to say to that..lol
 Heytootseee316 [1:41 AM]:  thats all good though u awww to no
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  it doesn' t matter its chk chk
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  shot gun schade
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  toos
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  toots
 Siciliana x vc [1:42 AM]:  u are confusing me
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  im tippsy but ya now
 Siciliana x vc [1:42 AM]:  oh...ohhhhhh
 Siciliana x vc [1:42 AM]:  ur drunk
 Siciliana x vc [1:42 AM]:  got it
 Heytootseee316 [1:42 AM]:  its mind boggling
 Heytootseee316 [1:43 AM]:  thats my aliby
 Heytootseee316 [1:43 AM]:  sweet heart
 Heytootseee316 [1:43 AM]:  if i had a pic u trip on my body
 Heytootseee316 [1:44 AM]:  i got colored eyes too
 Siciliana x vc [1:44 AM]:  everyone has colored eyes
 Heytootseee316 [1:44 AM]:  im musculy
 Heytootseee316 [1:45 AM]:  i no it sounds goood and i got the talkin part dun but ya no
 Heytootseee316 [1:45 AM]:  my eyes turn grey blue green it depends what i wear
 Siciliana x vc [1:46 AM]:  where in tempe do u live?
 Heytootseee316 [1:46 AM]:  mclintock and elliot
 Heytootseee316 [1:47 AM]:  gilbert what the hell is out there
 Heytootseee316 [1:47 AM]:  only u
 Siciliana x vc [1:47 AM]:  cows
 Heytootseee316 [1:47 AM]:  lol
 Heytootseee316 [1:47 AM]:  thats not u cow        gal
 Heytootseee316 [1:47 AM]:  ur pretty
 Siciliana x vc [1:47 AM]:  thank u
 Heytootseee316 [1:48 AM]:  dont let any one tell ya wrong or i will beat them
 Heytootseee316 [1:48 AM]:  it waz hot today
 Heytootseee316 [1:48 AM]:  i got paid today
 Siciliana x vc [1:49 AM]:  wow
 Siciliana x vc [1:49 AM]:  thats amazing
 Heytootseee316 [1:49 AM]:  on a tuesday i no
 Heytootseee316 [1:49 AM]:  every week
 Heytootseee316 [1:50 AM]:  i get funds out of prison 4 something i didnt even do
 Heytootseee316 [1:50 AM]:  mad duckets
 Siciliana x vc [1:50 AM]:  what were u charged with?
 Heytootseee316 [1:50 AM]:  i work and go to mcc
 Heytootseee316 [1:51 AM]:  armed robbery
 Heytootseee316 [1:51 AM]:  they found out who did it
 Heytootseee316 [1:52 AM]:  and kicked me out w/ nutin hun
 Heytootseee316 [1:52 AM]:  i had a bad ass woman
 Heytootseee316 [1:52 AM]:  talk to shot gun schade now
 Heytootseee316 [1:53 AM]:  chk
 Heytootseee316 [1:53 AM]:  chk
 Heytootseee316 [1:53 AM]:  dont leave me until i meet u hun
 Heytootseee316 [1:54 AM]:  its like ur protectected by shotgun schade stand back if u got riffles
 Siciliana x vc [1:54 AM]:  ok, ur scaring me now
 Heytootseee316 [1:54 AM]:  huh o
 Heytootseee316 [1:55 AM]:  srrryyyyyyyyyy
 Heytootseee316 [1:55 AM]:  is that how spell i  wwhhhhoooooooooooops
 Heytootseee316 [1:56 AM]:  dont let me do that to ya
 Heytootseee316 [1:56 AM]:  im very protective of woman
 Heytootseee316 [1:57 AM]:  im the coolest male u could ever meet
 Heytootseee316 [1:57 AM]:  at that
 Siciliana x vc [1:57 AM]:  i bet
 Heytootseee316 [1:57 AM]:  so u work
 Siciliana x vc [1:58 AM]:  no
 Heytootseee316 [1:58 AM]:  school
 Siciliana x vc [1:58 AM]:  not right now
 Heytootseee316 [1:59 AM]:  thats a right it pays of in long wrong so i do go to mcc
 Heytootseee316 [1:59 AM]:  i work too
 Heytootseee316 [1:59 AM]:  chevron
 Siciliana x vc [1:59 AM]:  i'm going to bed now, goodnite
 Heytootseee316 [1:59 AM]:  u rember crossroads well a at the corner of that
 Siciliana x vc [2:00 AM]:  i'm going to bed
 Heytootseee316 [2:00 AM]:  were i live at
 Siciliana x vc [2:00 AM]:  goodnite
 Heytootseee316 [2:00 AM]:  bye
 Heytootseee316 [2:00 AM]:  be good girl

the past six days have been good and bad.

THE GOOD: out of the hundreds of jobs i've applied to, one finally called me back. it's a data entry position for a financial company. monday-friday, $9 an hour for 40 hours. they're supposed to call me either tomorrow or wednesday to come down and fill out employee papers. so yay i finally found a job. Robert called me the other day and told me he found a job down here as well. he'll start in 2 weeks. things were finally looking up for us.

THE BAD: saturday Robert calls me and tells me he's gonna partner up with his friend who ownes a landscaping business in Boston. his friend wants him to work the business end of it, financial stuff ya know, while his friend would do the actual landscaping in Boston. Robert goes "theres a lot of money in this." like he's said a million times before and he's still broke. so i said "you said that about the real estate and the car dealership." (he went to real estate school, and didn't even take the test, and he worked at a car dealership and quit after a month) so he called me a not so nice name and hung up on me. i called him back a few minutes later and he said "we're through." apparently i had torn his heart out by saying that comment. he said the entire year we've been together i haven't been supportive. hmm..who else would stick by a guy who sets so many goals for himself and was always too lazy to achieve them. oh yeah, prolly no one. everything he's tried while he was with me i've supported. he told me he was going to real estate school and i said "good you'll be great at it." he went to work at the car dealership, had to work long hours but i got to see him every night and HE'D always complain he was working way too many hours, i'd say "at least you're making money." he quit after a month. so i asked him how i was unsupportive the year we were together and he couldn't come up with anything "just let me go, i gotta go." and he hung up. plus, if i wasn't supportive why'd it take him a year to break up with me? because it wasn't true. Candice told me she thinks he said that we were through to make me feel what he was feeling, and that made sense cuz later that night he called me and he acted like everything was back to normal. but we did agree that we have a lot to talk about and we're both willing to work things out. so we overcame our first major bump in the road.